it's friday again hahah . feels so bored now .

why are your family problems making us can't talk? I don't understand . Didn't we talked as usual like last time? So what is wrong now? o_o

Are you afraid that your mom will try to break us up? when she is feeling down and upset now and couldn't think properly? Please, you're already 20 now, going for army soon, not a 15 year old kid. She did that the last time cos you're still so young. She's afraid you may go the wrong path in the past. Actually, hearing you talk about your past like going clubbing, misbehaving, fighting with your father, running away from home to your neighbours' house and stay for a few days? I can really understand why your mom did that. But you've changed now isn't it? Into a proper Man. right? If you are my son, I will do that too. I wouldn't let my son out go clubbing, hugging other girls at such young age. You know, young kids below 18 usually don't think about their future. But you're going into army soon, Big guy.

I think you're more mature now. I don't know if i got tell you about this before, during the start of our relationship, your mom did called me a few times and we talked abit. She was trying to know me. She did warn me about those pre-marital sex blah blah and all. She's worry that we might do the wrong stuff cos im only 17 and you're only 18 then. I did assured her that i wouldn't do that and i think the same way as her too. After 1 month, she didn't call me anymore. Once in a blue moon, she even send some sms to ask how i was doing and a good night message. I believe that she cares for me. I believed that she trusted me enough and here we are, coming so far after 2 years. I doubt she hates me. I'm already 19 and you're 20. Adults. I would love to care for her and get along with her, treating her like my second mom. I don't mind telling her i love her and hug her too.

Even if your mom calls me and say nasty things, i'm telling you in your face that i am not afraid of it. I believe we can make it. I'm strong enough yeah. If she find ways to keep you at home, i can pop by secretly or we can meet up when you're going out or sth. We can talk after she sleeps. So many many many stuffs we can do. Do you understand this? I am not afraid and are you?

I thought your family seems better already. I don't really know what is in your mind now.
It's not that im getting pek cek with you, i only want an answer. When will you be back normal? when will you be back to me? or no? and loads of other stuffs.

I miss you so much yet i can't see you, can't touch you nor even talk to you.

Nevermind, i'll wait till the day when you're ready to call me. Please don't drag on too long already :<