hmm looks like things still remains the same till now lol .
i knew all about it .
Sometimes i wonder why am i so stupid in the past to waste time go look for a private server with ring effects specially for the both of us . and yet when you found one, you did not even bother to tell me .and hooked up with another girl instead .
is online bgr and family really that fun ?
perhaps i have not met mine yet (:
one day...maybe i should have my well deserved fantasy too.




There's an increasing number of people adding my facebook and msn these days . i dont mind in facebook but in msn everyone kept popping out and ask intro intro and yet none of them are handsomes -_- [pardon me] there's one with a fuck face who really annoyed me kept asking me for my hp number the first day he added me in msn. i rejected him flatly. The next day when i logged in online he kept spam nudges when i purposely ignored him. he got this "bu soon yan" face in his msn pic which reminds me of someone who asked me to have a secret affair with him sometime ago which im so surprised of. I met him at meridian JC when my friends and i went for the open house. he is my friend's friend. He seems like those class jokers and a decent fun loving guy when i first met him there but who knows he turned out to be a pervert lol. no wonder people say first impression is always very important. i think he must have gotten tired cos i felt quiet from him today lolol .

Besides this, im still quite surprised that my ex, Andy, actually added me in facebook when we have not talked for so long. It's a surprise to me because I thought that he's going to ignore me and im going to ignore him like strangers for life ever since we broke up. i think he's my only ex who did that. The others, we just avoid each other.
This brings back memories about all my ex-boyfriends. i don't like thinking back about them cos it brings back unhappy memories. hmm, so far the most impressions left by my ex-boyfriends are Andy[humjibanana], Alvin[pegasi], Anthony(Wintermilk) and Bryan[lamecools]...the rest i either don't remember their names or it's just a short online relationship/flings. [i realised most of my ex's names start with letter A -.-]
1. Anthony.
it've been quite long since we break up. Reason being? he's a flirt. he betrayed me. yes. lol. he's a nice and sweet guy, a pity that he's fickleminded. However, he's one of my ex who managed to maintain a normal friend friend relationship with me after we broke up.
2. Bryan.
Bryan's a good guy. He can give security to his girlfriend. To him, if he has a girlfriend, his eyes will only have her. Even though we always ended up never meeting in real life, but i had a nice and sweet time with him just in our maple relationship. A pity that a miunderstanding made us broke up. When we were close to patching up again, that bitch babyshenay kept pestering him. lol maybe it's fate that we won't be together.
3. Alvin.
hmm don't know what to say about alvin too. We broke up cos of a indirect 3rd party whom is his godsister. This godsister-eva, is not blood related with alvin. But Eva is rich, pretty and one year older than us. Heard that her dad is going to adobt alvin as his godson. i wonder if alvin like Eva because of status or what. he's always so close with her. like her bf. Even Eva's rl boyfriend stated that and is unhappy. Does he really think that Eva's dad will really adopt him as his godson? lol? Everyone can see that and our relationship began to fall apart with many unhappiness. So we broke up. He's one whom i still hated.
4. Andy.
Andy potraits a caring and sweet bf to me. in maple, he's always accompany me and friends are always envious of us. I still remember his friends, weijian and clay lol till today we are still friends. I liked the company of his friends cos they are sociable and fun and they always like to create space for andy and me and make fun of us when the four of us went out together. But i never expected him to backstab me and i found out a hideous secret that he betrayed me when i came back from my holiday. I caught him with another girl online and i was so angry that i "divorced" him without clarifying things with him. From that moment on, we never talked to each other again. Then, he hacked my maple account. wtf i seriously hate him for doing that. But his 2 friends are so nice to help me investigate this secretly even though the 3 of them are classmates.  He is in the army now and single for quite a long time.

99% of my ex-boyfriends betrayed me except Bryan. That's why we came to an end. Why are guys so fickleminded? Why do they like to hurt me so much? Why should i waste my tears for these types of guys. I seriously hope that i will not meet anymore of those guys to be my boyfriend or husband. To think that even my current bf too. have all the good guys gone extinct? I'm sick of getting hurt again.

What i want in a relationship is :
 My boyfriend/husband will only have eyes for me regardlessly online or real life.
 I will only have eyes for my boyfriend/husband.
I just want a pure love relationship with no third party.
The Earth will only revolve around you and me. Yes just you and me.

Is this really alot? It's just the basic? lol? 

Im always full of envy when i see fann wong and christopher lee on TV nowadays with their advertisements etc etc. The two of them are so loving and sweet that i could melt in tears. How i wish i'll have a future like theirs too.























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